“The Word we study has to be the Word we pray. My personal experience of the relentless tenderness of God came not from exegetes, theologians, and spiritual writers, but from sitting still in the presence of the living Word and beseeching Him to help me understand with my head and heart His written Word. Sheer scholarship alone cannot reveal to us the gospel of grace. We must never allow the authority of books, institutions, or leaders to replace the authority of *knowing* Jesus Christ personally and directly. When the religious views of others interpose between us and the primary experience of Jesus as the Christ, we become unconvicted and unpersuasive travel agents handing out brochures to places we have never visited.”
”..but the cares of the world, and the lure of wealth, and the desire for other things come in and choke the Word, and it yields nothing.” -Mark 4:19
“I was astonished that although I now loved You, I did not persist in my enjoyment of God. Your beauty drew me to You, but soon I was dragged down and away from You by my own weight. In dismay I plunged again into the things of this world.” - St. Augustine
the inconvenient truth. the best part, of course, the part that warms my heart and comforts me to no end, is that we always get to go back. we worship the God of second, third, millionth chances. He is always greater.
“I recalled the stillness of my father’s office when I’d first step in every afternoon. I used to race home to see him after school, down in his study writing; it would be so quiet in there. He’d be thinking, scribbling away with a pencil. He’d almost always be happy to see me. He could make me feel great. It’s so different having a living father who loves you, even someone complex and imperfect. After your father dies, defeat becomes pretty defeating. When he’s still alive, there are setbacks and heartbreaks, but you’re still the apple of someone’s eye.”
What I can do is paint you a picture of what you’ll never see when you’re with a guy who’s really into you: You’ll never see you staring maniacally at your phone, willing it to ring. You’ll never see you ruining an evening with friends because you’re calling for your messages every fifteen seconds. You’ll never see you hating yourself for calling him when you know you shouldn’t have. What you will see is you being treated so well that no phone antics will be necessary. You’ll be too busy being adored.
If the guy you’re dating doesn’t seem to be completely into you, or you feel the need to start ‘figuring him out,’ please consider the glorious thought that he might just not be that into you. And then free yourself to go find someone that is.